Sometimes I just want to hide among the crowds and not be seen.
Not be understood.
Or dissected.
A rogue space for my mind.
Sometimes I just want to hide among the crowds and not be seen.
Not be understood.
Or dissected.
jin is tired
jin is not looking for love
jin actually wants to die
then jin meets jungkook
dying right before his eyes
but oh so happy
and resigned
jungkook falls for jin
wants to be with jin for as long as he can
but jin doesn't want it
jin doesn't want love
because love is fickle
love is not for him
but jungkook is relentless
makes jin fall for him
now jin tells jungkook his secret
jungkook gets angry
jungkook felt betrayed
jungkook recalled how jin resisted him
but all along he was a vampire?
jin says he will turn jungkook into a vampire
Jungkook said no.
jin begged and begged
jungkook said no.
Love was meant to be temporary and constant at the same time
Always moving, always changing, always there
Jungkook was resigned to die
Jin decided then to die before Jungkook
Jin prepared everything and Jungkook panicked
Jungkook tried to convince Jin to stay but Jin was also stubborn
So Jin tried to die but Jungkook stopped it
Then agreed to become a vampire instead
and then they lived happily ever after
This was the draft for Love Song for a Vampire. It was supposed to be romcom but somehow all my stories end up getting dramatic. I'm truly a drama queen. :p Anyways, this was how it all began and somehow ended up the way it ended.
I actually love how my story ended. It was... magical, to say the least. For me, anyway.
So I just wanted to share this.
If you're curious to know how the story actually went, here's the video for part 1 of Love Song for a Vampire:
Honestly, I began writing for myself and yes, I'm still doing that. Of course, with my cousin's prodding, she told me to make the YouTube channel and basically said that maybe, just maybe I can also earn from them.
Well, as per my meager research, earning from writing fanfiction is quite a challenge.
No wonder, most of the authors I follow and admire have kofi, patreon and other accounts that allow them to earn money through commissions.
Sadly, I don't know if I'll ever do commissions? I feel that I still don't have the skills to make a story specifically for a person with paid expectations in mind. That realm is too scary for me.
For now, I'm just writing whatever I feel like writing. Whether it be romance, horror, mystery, tragedy or the macabre. I haven't even tried comedy because I think my sense of humor just doesn't show when I write. :)
I mean, look here.
Emoji.
That's it.
So... I'm looking at either a downloadable e-book that has all my stories or something like the Kindle Direct Publishing (something similar). I don't know.
I also have this blog.
Sigh.
I have another blog on wordpress where my stories are.
Should I lock those up? I don't know.
I locked my works on ao3.
Sigh.
Writing is not easy.
But I really really like it.
My mind gets like crowded and writing like now, helps me sort out my feelings and thoughts. Somehow.
So... I'm at a crossroads I think.
Yet, I'll continue to ponder on this. Until I decide later on what to do.
For now, I love how my stories are shared among my readers. It's not much but really, it feels good that there are some people who actually read them. And like them!
Nice!
Seriously, I just miss Seokjin and Jungkook. They truly inspire me to create scenarios for them. Both men are just so amazing. So perfect for each other. But that's just me.
xoxo
I have to write about this because honestly, I was proud of this.
So, I hope that you'll find my take entertaining.
So Facebook is quite strict with pages now. I went and made one for Rogue Fanfiction but it was like no, you can't create another fb account using your name. So you can't basically own two fb accounts now. Err... So I had to revamp my blogger facebook page and hopefully, it will work.
It's so hard. This is hard to do. :(
No wonder other creators hire someone to do this. Sigh.
Wish me luck!