Sometimes I just want to hide among the crowds and not be seen.

Not be understood. 

Or dissected.

romcom blurb#1

 jin is tired

jin is not looking for love

jin actually wants to die

then jin meets jungkook

dying right before his eyes

but oh so happy

and resigned

jungkook falls for jin

wants to be with jin for as long as he can

but jin doesn't want it

jin doesn't want love

because love is fickle

love is not for him

but jungkook is relentless

makes jin fall for him

now jin tells jungkook his secret

jungkook gets angry

jungkook felt betrayed

jungkook recalled how jin resisted him

but all along he was a vampire?

jin says he will turn jungkook into a vampire

Jungkook said no.

jin begged and begged

jungkook said no.

Love was meant to be temporary and constant at the same time

Always moving, always changing, always there

Jungkook was resigned to die

Jin decided then to die before Jungkook

Jin prepared everything and Jungkook panicked

Jungkook tried to convince Jin to stay but Jin was also stubborn

So Jin tried to die but Jungkook stopped it

Then agreed to become a vampire instead

and then they lived happily ever after

This was the draft for Love Song for a Vampire. It was supposed to be romcom but somehow all my stories end up getting dramatic. I'm truly a drama queen. :p Anyways, this was how it all began and somehow ended up the way it ended. 

I actually love how my story ended. It was... magical, to say the least. For me, anyway.

So I just wanted to share this. 

If you're curious to know how the story actually went, here's the video for part 1 of Love Song for a Vampire:

The Woes of a Fanfic Writer

 So. I did say that I began uploading my stories on YouTube right? And it has been quite a ride. How awesome it was to actually have people give me feedback on my stories. Like it's the best feeling! Ever!

Honestly, I began writing for myself and yes, I'm still doing that. Of course, with my cousin's prodding, she told me to make the YouTube channel and basically said that maybe, just maybe I can also earn from them. 

Well, as per my meager research, earning from writing fanfiction is quite a challenge.

No wonder, most of the authors I follow and admire have kofi, patreon and other accounts that allow them to earn money through commissions.

Sadly, I don't know if I'll ever do commissions? I feel that I still don't have the skills to make a story specifically for a person with paid expectations in mind. That realm is too scary for me.

For now, I'm just writing whatever I feel like writing. Whether it be romance, horror, mystery, tragedy or the macabre. I haven't even tried comedy because I think my sense of humor just doesn't show when I write. :) 

I mean, look here.

Emoji.

That's it.

So... I'm looking at either a downloadable e-book that has all my stories or something like the Kindle Direct Publishing (something similar). I don't know.

I also have this blog.

Sigh.

I have another blog on wordpress where my stories are. 

Should I lock those up? I don't know.

I locked my works on ao3.

Sigh.

Writing is not easy.

But I really really like it.

My mind gets like crowded and writing like now, helps me sort out my feelings and thoughts. Somehow.

So... I'm at a crossroads I think.

Yet, I'll continue to ponder on this. Until I decide later on what to do. 

For now, I love how my stories are shared among my readers. It's not much but really, it feels good that there are some people who actually read them. And like them!

Nice!

Seriously, I just miss Seokjin and Jungkook. They truly inspire me to create scenarios for them. Both men are just so amazing. So perfect for each other. But that's just me. 

xoxo

Anthropomorphism in my Fanfiction

 I have to write about this because honestly, I was proud of this.

So, I hope that you'll find my take entertaining.

Wow

 So Facebook is quite strict with pages now. I went and made one for Rogue Fanfiction but it was like no, you can't create another fb account using your name. So you can't basically own two fb accounts now. Err... So I had to revamp my blogger facebook page and hopefully, it will work. 

It's so hard. This is hard to do. :(

No wonder other creators hire someone to do this. Sigh.

Wish me luck!

Hmmm

 Writing gives me pleasure. There is a certain satisfaction of putting into words my thoughts and ideas. 

I am blessed that there are people who actually read my stories. I'm really happy about that.

More than them appreciating my work, to me, it's like they like those parts of me. Those parts which I rarely show to others. 

I show it through my stories.

Much like most people, tragedy is a catalyst. A great teacher, I would say.

So this is what I often try to depict in my stories.

How life in all its form can change everyone. Especially the characters in my story.

In my most current story, I tried to reflect that. 

Please look forward to it.

xoxo

My Jinkook babies!

Love is Pain

 My first post after so long.

Goodness.

The birthing pains is real.

This is basically a whole new blog about my fanfiction journey in the BTS fandom featuring my OTP Kim Seokjin and Jeon Jungkook a.k.a. Jinkook or Kookjin.

I plan to share my thought process here when I'm writing fiction and maybe some of my readers (that's you) can be my sounding board.

The operative word is maybe.

This means, I will take whatever feedback I get with a grain of salt but ultimately, the choice to write and what to write will be all up to me. Coz I'm the one with the pen.

This is quite personal to me.

The stories I share are a part of me. And I also want to give various kinds of loves to my muses Seokjin and Jungkook. Maybe, they might come across my stories and hopefully it would entertain them somehow.

xoxo